The Dichotomy of Life, Grief, and the ‘Unfolding’

So much grief.

I have survived,

but it has cost me

I have grown,

but it has cost me

I have done it,

but it has cost me

What is left?

Sometimes I wonder.

Was it worth it?

Some days I’m not sure.

No, it is worth it….. but oh, what it has cost.

I grieve that part of me,

that identity.

That carefree, easy agility,

the lighthearted, unscarred, unharmed part of me.

And yet…

I am proud.

SO PROUD

There is a fierceness where, before, it lay dormant.

There is a strength that roars that I didn’t know.

There is a humility that lies below the surface.

A humanness, a recognition of life and all it does to us.

…The beauty and the sorrow

The Velveteen Rabbit was right.

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I hope this piece resonates…. I hope this brings forth all the beauty and strength that has come from the pain…. I hope it brings an inner knowing, a recognition, and a feeling of peace. For all that you endured, for all that you have known; for it is through this process that we become ourselves, and through this process that the knowing unfolds.

The grace, the peace, the strength, the truest part of us in our truest form. Let it sink in, let it steep through you…..

You are here now, on the other side. Changed, shifted, different. Magnificent.

A space to grieve what was lost. To allow it to be there, not resisting – just holding.

When we allow the journey, when we allow the grief, loss, and pain, when we sit with rather than resist/numb/avoid, we allow the full depth of ourselves to alchemize. We allow the full experience of ourselves, humanity, and our own knowing. We let go of ego, we let go of narratives, and we simply be, in all that we are.

There is both grief and freedom in this, and wherever you are in this journey, it’s ok… The journey continues.